iv. Distancing Himself From His Mother - Two Women And Two Unconverging Lines
iv. Distancing Himself From His Mother
As he entered junior high school, he was a model student. Though he was not very keen on sports and was not an A student in P.E. (Physical Education) class as a result, he was studious; he did well in all subjects. He was not exactly one of those who wanted to sell their names by being class presidents and members of the student association; in fact, he generally disliked the idea of politics. He found that it was fundamentally corrupt; in fact, he held the same belief even to this day. He did not cause any trouble in school or outside. No pickpocketing, no smoking, no drinking, no drugs. He did not recall hanging out in downtown even, nor did he venture out to the city. He spent much time in school, in tutoring schools and at home. Somewhat introverted and he spent a lot of time indoors, but he did not spend a lot of time playing video games a lot. He did play occasionally but certainly not as much as others. So, basically, with the exception of socializing and politicking, he was a model early teenager, one of those teenagers whose parents rarely worried about.
But at the same time, he started discovering the world of his own in this period. Though he took studying seriously, it was for his own benefit; it was not exactly to please his mother or father. He certainly understood that they wanted to see him do well in school, and that was in his conscious as he tried to obtain as high scores as he could on all tests, but he had his own goal. He wanted to become a scholar. He was interested in pure science, and eventually, he began having a rather concrete idea of wanting to become a mathematician. He pursued a different career in his later years, but the significance was that his self-interest started becoming more and more important. There was no major conflict between him and his mother, but, as he recalled, his affection toward his mother started fading away; he did not feel much attachment to her at this point.
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The progression of the diminishment of his endearment toward his mother was quite contrary to that of his emotion toward Jessica, the petite girl with glasses. She was just a stranger when he met her for the first time, but she was always in his mind after the encounter. Some say that there is no such thing as love; it is just a chemical reaction. He did not disagree with the idea; however, the fact of the matter was that the reaction was taking place. He desired to become closer to Jessica. He lacked understanding of the development of a romantic relationship as he was not very experienced, and therefore, he did not have a concrete idea of how he could approach her or observe her reactions, but his longing was strong.
